It’s almost midnight and I am tired but I committed to writing every day. Today I woke up at 4:30 am to talk to four women with four septum rings in Oregon and I have been dragging all day. The conversation made me happy so it was worth it. Some days the pleasures are tiny, just a crumb of good feeling in there amongst the returning grief or heavy questions. Today I smelled the ceanothus.
But mostly today was bags of rocks.
I always stop to look at the free books on my interminable and surely soon to be curtailed walks.
Grief is like cat dominoes of the heart. One grief, one long trail of falling ivories. And then time passes and they seem stable, they will not tumble. The next grief arrives, looks like mah jong or jenga, all is well in the game of sadness. But now, one grief can awaken another and another and another. Am I sad today for this loss or that one?
Thank you.
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It was a hard day today for sure. Just winding mine down today. It was difficult.
Bag of rocks was funny!
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Sometimes I watch an entire film or read a book and just one line gets stuck….
What is it you can know about walking the beaches near Point Reyes?
Other than the smell of ceanothus….
This, Point Reyes, is my home country. Born and raised. Still beguiled after leaving 40+ years ago.
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Oh yes Robert – I didn’t know you were from there. I have a dear friend there and both of my cousins got married there so it is a bit of a touchstone in my geography.
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